The experience we call spiritual formation is essentially nothing more nor less than learning to be sensitive to the divine presence. We can't fix ourselves. We can't find our own way. We certainly can't control life's twists and turns. But we can gradually learn to sense God's presence with us in all things. His love. And his peace. But I confess to having a problem doing it.
As I've tried to figure out why I have the problem, at least this much is clear: I am more comfortable with noise than silence, activity than stillness, struggling than surrender, trying to be strong than admitting my weakness.
The French philosopher and mathematician Blaise Pascal wrote:
All human miseries come from not being able to sit in a quiet room alone.
Could he possibly be right?
Do we humans need more reflection than we permit ourselves?
Time to take our thoughts and feelings seriously?
The courage to bring them honestly before God to see what he may want us to learn?
Recently I was traveling and wound up having to sit in an airport far longer than I had anticipated. For Type-A personalities, that is nerve-jangling, finger-drumming time! I had a schedule. There were things to do. So... something told me to pray and journal instead of churn. And I did — about a host of things. The time passed quickly. When I was able to get going on the road again, there was no haste or panic. Just gratitude for an unanticipated time with God. And a sense of peace about what lay ahead.
Perhaps you live at such a pace that a half day or even a half hour of silence with God seems impractical. For today, put just five minutes of silence between appointments or work two five-minute periods of quiet into your morning.
At the end of the day, you may have discovered the meaning of this text from Scripture:
Be still, and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10).