Many of us know one another from before we became who we became.
(Esther Dyson, Release 2.0, p. 18)
This was my twentieth reunion with my college class. A
good number of us returned. Twenty years is a long time.
We were different, though in many ways very much the
same. As I drove the four hours home that night, I thought
of how dramatic just a few decisions twenty years ago
altered my life. As my two children slept, I was powerfully
shaken by the thought that they would soon be making
I am thankful for my faith in a loving Father who knit me
together in my mothers womb and had a plan for the
days of my existence before one of them came to be.
[Psalm 139:13, 16] The decisions I have made have not
been made alone. I have made them confident that God
has led me by his Spirit (Gal. 5:18) and through his Spirit
he is working what is best for my eternal well being
This faith is important because the end of the year, our
journey through mid life, and our life crises send us a not so
gentle zephyr of doubt. Satan uses these bitter breezes to stir
up longing for what might have been or what will never be.
These forces are not easy to allay. I have seen them rip many
marriages, families, lives, and futures apart.
Im convinced that God leads and his grace
provides and his Spirit empowers.|
Thankfully I believe I am where God wants me to be,
married to the one he led me to love, with the children he
chose for me to influence, and in the ministry he made me to
serve. But like any believer, Satan has tried to make me doubt
by sending an occasional and not so gentle zephyr. Thankfully
by Gods grace, my house has stood against the Adversarys gale
because Im convinced that God leads and his grace
provides and his Spirit empowers. Thankfully my life and
future and family are his and he doesn't make mistakes.
Before I became who I became, I was the same person I
am nowI was, and am, Gods child. So Satans not so
gentle zephyrs may rustle my sails, but my Captain holds
the tiller and sets my course into a new year to live for his
glory and by his grace. Care to join me in the journey?
Then lets not look back and wonder what if but look
forward with expectation at what will be, offering all we
have and are for his incomparable glory.