Please See Me Through My Tears
You asked, How are you doing?
As I told you, tears came to my eyes
looked away and quickly began to talk again, All the
attention you had given me drained away.
How am I doing?
I can do better when people listen,
though I may shed a tear or two.
This pain is indescribable. If youve never known it you
cannot fully understand.
Yet I need you.
When you look away,
When Im ignored,
I am again alone with it.
Your attention means more than you can ever know.
Really, tears are not a bad sign, you know!
Theyre natures way of helping me heal
They relieve some of the stress of sadness.
I know you fear that asking how Im doing brings me sadness
but youre wrong.
The memory of my loved ones death will always be with me,
Only a thought away.
My tears make my pain more visible to you, but you did not
give me the pain
it was already there.
When I cry, could it be that you feel helpless, not knowing
what to do?
You are not helpless,
and you dont need to do a thing but be there.
When I feel your permission to allow my tears to flow,
youve helped me.
You need not speak. Your silence as I cry is all I need.
do not fear.
Listening with your heart to how I am doing
relieves the pain,
for when the tears can freely come and go, I feel lighter,
Talking to you releases what Ive been wanting to say aloud,
for a touch of joy in my life.
Ill cry for a minute or two
and then Ill wipe my eyes,
and sometime youll even find Im laughing later.
When I hold back the tears, my throat grows tight,
my chest aches, my stomach knots
because Im trying to protect you from my tears.
Then we both hurt
me, because my pain is held inside,
a shield against our closeness
because suddenly were distant.
So please, take my hand and see me through my tears
then we can be close again.
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