If youre like Thomas a Kempis, a Christian writer in the fourteenth century, you may feel better about your faith in God when you first began to believe  at the beginning of your spiritual walk  than later on.  Seems in reverse, doesnt it?  
   
As we walk with Jesus, we may see our failures clearer as we go along.  And we may begin to feel the weight of those failures greater as we go than we did at first because we want so much to be perfect.  
   
We must not let that desire for perfection weigh our hearts down.  Only one  Jesus Christ  was able to be perfect. 
   
And while we may not see our growth and maturity, the power of God is working in those who believe all of the time.  He loves us, no matter where we are in our spiritual walk.